Marianne Williamson once said that “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

This saying might have just come to for me, after five (5) years of dong all that there has been to be done to change the Kenyan Art Industry.

Exactly one week after officially finalizing the post production of my first short film projects (The Struggle: A refugees’ Real Life Story and The Scourge: Separating The Myths from The Facts, I got blocked from The Kenya Film and Television Stakeholders Facebook Page.

I have been a vocal critic of the Kenyan Film Industry, never mind that I’m a part of it, mostly on issue that touch on thespians welfare. This has apparently been seen as being “hot headed” by producers. The truth is, before I decided to get into film making, I was an actor, I still am. Having appeared in Three International Films shot in Kenya, Two Kenyan Films and Two Kenyan Television Drama Series . The treatment that I got both as a stage and a screen actor made me a great defender of thespians rights and I don’t shy away from telling whoever it is that I feel is undermining thespians growth.

The attitude has not changed a lot but it has made producers so mad and so scared  that I found myself being blacklisted by almost all producer in Kenya as a difficult person.  Believe me not, it is worth the effort. Today, I just got blocked from the mentioned and if you are asking yourself why, here is the reason.

“Att. Allison and The Admin of this Group, I would like to know the main vision and mission of this group. this might appear as a rhetoric question but I have an explanation to it. There is a tendency of posts and comments going missing on this page barely an hour of them being posted, mostly when they are contrary to “the beliefs” of this group (when the comments touch on questions that rub producers wrong”. One such post is one that I did yesterday at 4.00 p.m asking “Kenya Film and Television Industry Stakeholders how many of us have gone to watch “Ndoto za Elibidi”. Is it not sad that we are out here “fighting” for more content on Kenyan TV and more audience for our films yet we as stakeholders do not have the time to support ourselves? How will we then convince others to come watch our films if we ourselves don’t watch them. We need to support ourselves first before we seek support elsewhere” by 5.30 p.m with 8 comments later, the post was nowhere. I would like to ask, is this a group for demigods and sycophants whereby we should not ask questions and continue the philosophy of ass liking of “say nothing, do nothing,ask nothing if you want to be in my next production”? If yes, do let me know so that some of us who are willing to change this industry by pin pointing the unseen, unheard, unsaid can get other media to do so coz I’m not ready to start liking ass and taking pooh… not now”

The gesture or reaction that followed this note has left me feeling so happy. I’m not sure of what I want to do next or what will happen to me next, but the truth is, I feel so powerful.

It is an achievement on my part. The fact that I can do anything I set my mind to with a vision, determination, and an endless supply of expendable labor and somebody get to react to it is enough proof that I can influence the change I envision in the Kenyan Film Industry.



  1. i may not be in film circles but i steer waters akin to yours. by the suggestions we make or questions we ask, we are often interpreted the wrong way despite the good intentions we may present. The powers or people that be take this as some sort of attack on them. Generally speaking – (writing in this case), most of us lack the know how of dealing or reacting to constructive criticism. One thing i have learnt over the years is that despite the fact that one may not be the saint people perceive them when one presents pertinent issues, we should be discplined enough to appreciate those opinions……wudnt u take advice from a thief who tells one that stealing is bad?

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